not much has happened since i last started writing this. well that is what i would say if i go for the usual labels about 'things happening'. but then yesterday while talking to a person with fascinating green eyes i realized what i might have known for long but not consciously perhaps. its was like a 2 and 2 coming together.

earlier while talking to a musician i had realized something else from what he had told me about feelings or experiences. he was describing to me the sound of a tabla and at one point he was talking about a specific raaga. but then he said that every beat on the tabla produces infinite notes or sounds though it was a single raaga. and exactly at that moment he said it and i realized it that all that we feel, all our perceptions are essentially infinite. every moment of our lives is filled with these infinite feelings. this was an amazing realization because now any moment i can look at any feeling and feel the infiniteness in it.

and yesterday we were talking about labels and that was when i knew that labels are essentially a way for the mind to make infinite things finite so that they can be grasped and known(logically). other than that everything remains as it is....infinite. the mind of a person stuck in labels just sees these finite labels and remains stuck while the wise man rejoices in the infinite. and having known this i rejoice in the infinite while still carrying on with this life that places an essential limitation on everything.

i don't wish to make this a matter of choice. the whole as it is, is supposed to consist of both. neither the west is wrong nor the east is wrong.....both are right in different ways and both ways have their own important place in a beings life. i see the complementarity of things to come! HOT.