well, last time i ended up wondering about bluffmaster. as it turns out, i saw bluff master only last week so i should not have lost a lot in terms of flow of thought. i know it has been 3 months but then finally the throes of cold around me have mellowed down and infact today was the first time that i saw a sunny day third time in a row. although there is rain ahead in front of me, i am not getting shaken yet. spring is around for sure since i saw some amazing violet flowers yesterday and even saw buds coming out from plants in the evening where i had seen no buds in the morning. even my "money plant" is growing with increased zeal, now with the daylight saving time change behind me. the sun is setting after 7 and it is dusk till around 9.

either way, this term is over and its gone pretty good for me. right now all my course work is left behind me. i just have finish this thesis and then i have think of this big grant. otherwise i am cool. i thought it was time to do some serious reading so what do i do - well i get osho and arun shourie to give me company. i have to revive all this past knowledge of mine. and the best way for me to do it is to use my mind as i do with everything else.

but all this time, i sure ended up assimilating a few things and slowly but surely a long term plan is building up within me as to where things must go as far as my life is concerned. by profession i would be involved in cancer epidemiology but a greater good for as many people as concerned is what i am staring at. i don't know if it would too premature to disclose my dreams at this point but still a dream is a dream and i dream big most of the time. i am trying to dream even bigger coz there is nothing to lose - i have to extract as much as possible from this body and mind of mine. as for me i know that i cannot extract anymore happiness than i have already had. of course i have known that infinite bliss and i am also slowly moving towards that point where i would be in company of this joy and bliss for most part. its all happening concurrently and all that i have to do stems from this realization of mine.

my main aims are to slowly get to know myself - internally, externally, fully, mentally, physically - from every worldly aspect. i want to know the shakti of my body as clearly as possible and maa has been helping me in it for sure. coz that is what maa wants - for everyone to reach his/her own shiva. with maa with me shiva is but a short step away. it amazing how maa does her work. but that will come later. first i have write how maa can help one to reach HIM. this i will do with the help of something else that i like and probably good at - writing.

otherwise i have been expanding my gadgets - i know have lots and lots of memory - with a external hard drive of 250GB and a microdrive for my PDA which 8 GB i am all ready to play and store and download. but India does produce movies at an amazing rate and all GBs fail in front of its music production. i guess this is going to increase further in the face of the presence of increased nuclear energy.

yes energy is of primary benefit. if there is enough energy in a country and enough people are educated then nothing can stand now-a-days between a man and his money. you need the right combo of shiva and shakti working for you and everything around you will follow your wishes. i wish it happens soon for india and i am sure i will be a part of that happening........at least i want to!