yes....its been what - 3 years now. i did not feel like writing again in this blog - for many reasons. 1 was the lack of consistency i have shown for not visiting my blogs more often. another was that i did not want to somehow disturb the pristine past locked up in my blogs. but what the heck....i don't my mind bothers me so much anymore, now that i can almost shut it down in normal circumstances. i am still working on the abnormal circumstances part. we will get there.

right now i am here in my friends place waiting for that offer letter. i have interviewed and hopefully the end of the tunnel seems close. it better be coz i am totally fed up of applying for jobs. i had thought - phd and WAM jobs will be raining from the sky. what the..... and here i am almost 8 months into a job hunt and almost zilch! well, the jobs of the first 4 months got gobbled up by the recession. i had to literally start from scratch after hitting doldrums. but it was another experience i guess - looking for a job. i have sent my cv to at least 30 places if not 50. i wish things moved faster.

but yes.......i am done with all this. i want a job, i want money and i want to get on with the rest of my life. i have had almost everything put on hold coz of this phd thing. now that its done i want it all to move forward. in a way for the 1st time in my life my destiny ahead is not fully in control of me. but thats not so bad since i have been teaching myself lot more surrender lately. so here we are......